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Episode 144: Sarah & Mikeal

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Sarah & Mikeal
Age: 18 and 20
Location: Centerburg, Ohio
Addiction: Heroin
What’s memorable: The nasty bathroom they shoot up in and how sick they seem when they’re doing it, how addicted they are to each other, the moms trying to so hard to save their kids, how completely messed up Mikeal looks and acts in his interviews compared to what he looks like after treatment. He’s like the guy you see on the street that you know on first glance is a junkie, but then all the sudden he’s attractive and healthy looking. Such a transformation.

Official Synopsis: Like Romeo and Juliet on heroin, Mikeal and Sarah are a poor boy and a rich girl who have found sanctuary in each other’s pain. Sarah’s family feels that Mikeal has corrupted their daughter, taking Sarah from a casual pill abuser to a full-blown heroin addict. But now both families now agree that an intervention is their only hope. Will Sarah and Mikeal get help, or help each other tumble deeper into addiction?

Original Air Date: June 2011

Categories: Childhood Sexual Abuse, Heroin, Most Unforgettable Episodes, Season 10

Discussion

34 Responses to “Episode 144: Sarah & Mikeal”

  1. I am so sorry but I was so disgusted by Sarah’s mom treating Mikeal like trash. I hope for the love of all that is holy these two stayed away from one another . Sarah was one her was to heavy drug use and was tooling around with pills before she ever found Mikeal . Her family did not help her with their issues and the blame game .
    I was sad to see Mikeal had a relapse after Sarah cheated on him and I hope he realizes his life is worth more than dope and a very immature young woman . These two together are toxic . I hope the best for both of them and that means finding happiness by themselves .

    Posted by marcy lily | June 10, 2014, 9:05 pm
    • 100% agree …. and she had so much GUILT and would not admit to it. It came through in spades during her time on camera. She is guilty of pushing her daughter away – right or wrong. I think her mom and dad most likely tried to control every aspect of Sarah’s life, and it DID push her away and to Mikeal. And for Sarah’s mom to say what she said, and out what she did on Mikeal, was disgusting. He is a heroin abusing degenerate in his life right now, but Sarah’s mom is a lower form of life. She is selfish. She is mean. She is delusional. She is nasty.

      I felt so bad for Mikeals mom, and for Sarah. Sarah has parents who want their version of the perfect daughter (i.e. BARBIE) and Mikeals mom is truly worried he is going to die at any moment and she is alone and hurting so bad!

      Sarah’s mom can go pound sand! I HOPE Sarah is clean still today, and has little contact with her mom. What a POS.

      Posted by MDE427 | June 24, 2016, 5:07 am
      • It’s just their own denial. You can’t always see the forest for the trees. Hopefully the parents also received the treatment that they needed. It’s very easy to blame, look at all of these comments, that’s what all of you guys are doing. Sometimes it’s just hard to look inward.

        Posted by Layla | July 17, 2017, 12:27 pm
  2. I just re-watched this on my DVR. Such a sad one. Sarah’s mom also TOTALLY disgusted me. Mikeal is not responsible for her actions! Also at the end of the one I saw there was an update they split because SHE relapsed> I also had to laugh that Sarah’s mom felt she could see the deep emotional pain Sarah was feeling- don’t get me wrong, I’m sure she does- but NOTHING compared to Mikeal- in fact her life seemed pretty close to perfect… When and where did you see Mikeal relapsed because she cheated?

    Posted by jlo27916 | August 29, 2014, 12:57 pm
    • Different update . I had seen one several months prior to the dvd releases that said that Mikeal had a brief relapse after Sarah cheated . I am just glad he recovered and picked himself back up .
      Sarah ‘m mom was disgusting . Shaming Mikeal , his mom and blaming them was just brutal .

      Posted by marcy lily | September 30, 2014, 2:44 pm
    • Again the episode I saw aired before the dvd release . Sarah’s mom came off as very ” Holier Than Thou Can Be ” . It was just sick . Did she have no idea what was going on under her own roof and that her daughter was already dabbling in drugs . Did she have no idea of Mikeal severe trauma and pain ? I guess even if she did she would paint herself as perfect and blameless .
      I hope they both make it . But I know the pain and trauma of sexual abuse . Mikeal has a long road ahead and it is a hard one . Pulling for him and his poor mom 100 percent . No mom needs to hear a Type A ” I Am Better Than You Person ” tell them their kid is trash knowing he has been through the sickest evil a child can survive .

      Posted by marcy lily | September 30, 2014, 10:27 pm
  3. Very true

    Posted by marcy lily | December 4, 2014, 3:06 am
  4. You can do it Mikeal!

    Posted by Rachael | March 13, 2015, 11:18 am
  5. So I watched this show with sara and mikeal……saras mom was blaming mikeal for everything…..but really he introduced he to the drug ok and yes thas all it takes….but mikeal really had a hard child hood with what happened to him and ppl cope in different ways and heroin took his pain away….I have to say even tho mikeal was messed up thru out the show he seems like a really sweet nice kind and loving person….so I wrote to say I hope u r ok and doing well today….you r a strong man and I would just like to know how u r….

    Posted by Jessica McAlister | April 6, 2015, 5:21 am
  6. I’m doing alot better it got worse but luckly I didnt get any diseases or die and doing what i was doing alone with no one next to me for 3 years woke up with vomit next to me god knows how many times…ran drugs for traps in flint and so much shit but i got 3 months now and am giving it all i got honestly the hurt from sarah finally went away mostly like idk I kept wait for a message call letter but nothing..it hurt tried dating again one month passed found out she was married…. but i can sit alone and be happy today..email me at hellrazor2915@gmail.com if anyone needs someone to talk to if they got a addiction or family member and dont know what to do just make the subject all caps and resend it in a week if i dont respond working alot trying to rebuild my life. again

    Posted by mikeal | June 2, 2015, 11:42 pm
    • Just wanted to say congrats the clean time.. I saw your episode and my heart went out to both of you cuz nI know that same pain. I was an addict for 23 years but by the grace of my God i have now been clean for 5 years which has not always been easy. But as yousaid I take one at a time. Hey brother hang in there cuz I promise it gets easier if you truly want it to.. Hit me up if you ever feel like talking cuz Im always up for recovery talk… Love you brother..

      Posted by gene janik | August 2, 2015, 10:55 pm
  7. Is that the real Mikeal from the episode? ^^^

    Posted by Helen | June 16, 2015, 4:25 pm
  8. yes this is mikeal from the show i got on here to remind me where i could end up again

    Posted by mikeal | June 30, 2015, 8:24 pm
  9. I apologize if this posts twice. I posted once and it has never appeared. Mikeal I teared up when I saw a post on here from you. Over the years I have done internet searches from time to time trying to find out how you’re doing. You seem like a wonderful person and I’m so glad you are still with us. I wish you all the best.

    Misty (but everyone calls me Aunt Mitty)

    Posted by Misty | July 30, 2015, 12:02 pm
  10. Thank you and what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger right? And I’ve learned more so I think I got it this time

    Posted by Mikeal | August 2, 2015, 1:27 pm
    • Mikeal, very cool to see you are doing well. I haven’t seen your episode recently but I saw it when it originally aired and it’s one of those that sticks with ya. You were definitely memorable and looked so well by the end of the show. Are you on any social media – like Facebook?

      Posted by Selena S | August 3, 2015, 8:16 pm
  11. Hey Mikeal, hope you are doing well! Idk if you’re clean or using but either way I really connected with your story because I went through almost the exact same thing with a boyfriend and we aren’t together now – long story… But it left me heart broken for a long time. I too am a heroin addict and victim of sexual abuse and have severe depression, anxiety, ADHD and PTSD. I went to treatment like 4 times and it wasn’t working so like they say in AA doing the same thing expecting different results is insanity. So I’m taking a different approach. I’m on methadone now which had saved my life and currently am focusing a lot more on healing from rape and mental health problems than I am healing from addiction because that is what lead to my addiction. Good luck and hope you’re doing well!

    Posted by Nicole | August 4, 2015, 5:31 pm
  12. my husband is in recovery- Mikeal i am so very proud of you and wish u all joy and love in the world! u deserve a happy healthy life! 1 day at a time brotha!

    Posted by Jacinda Green | August 17, 2015, 5:07 pm
  13. Mikeal,

    I am so happy you are doing well. Keep up the good work!

    Posted by Angela | September 1, 2015, 8:49 pm
  14. I got a great job now but I put in my two weeks and my boss laid me off the day after so now I have no means to get food or to work and back I’ve been riding my bike 9 miles working 12 hours then 9 miles Home with one meal from stuff people at church gave me and my family is all broke or doesn’t want to help the addict but I’ve been praying and god told me to keep doing the right thing and get over my pride and just ask for help and he would provide.. I don’t want a hand out I just need a short term loan of 120$ till November and I can make a good life for myself. If anyone could help it’s the difference between me sleeping in a tent illegally for two weeks or having a roof over my head either way I’m not gonna give up and I’ll work my hands to the bone and till my body fails if I have to I know I can do it on my own I’m just running out of energy and could use a helping hand..

    Posted by Mikeal | September 20, 2015, 2:13 pm
  15. By the grace of god I’m getting into the sub once doctor on the 23rd now instead of the 28th or dexot oct 12th

    Posted by Mikeal | September 21, 2015, 5:29 pm
    • Mikeal, have you considered methadone? I know for me it was out of the question for a long time but it is what ended up saving my life. I’d been to several treatment centers, 5150/suicide watch in the hospital several times, suboxone detox and maintance several times, and was beginning to feel like there was no hope for me because I felt hopeless with h but suicidal without it, in part due to my PTSD from childhood sexual, physical and emotional abuse, and being raped, and in part due to my mental health problems of severe depression, dehibilitating anxiety and ADHD. I really related to your story in so many ways. Especially the sexual abuse and the BF/GF dynamic you had – I had two similar relationships. You seem like an awesome person and I want you to heal from everything you’ve been through not just h.

      Anyway, long story short I went with someone else to sign up for the methadone clinic with the intention of sitting there waiting for them since I was homeless and it was snowy. But when I got to the clinic, I had this really strong vibe telling me to sign up. I felt safe there, which is a rare commodity for me to feel safe anywhere. So I signed up, and after about a week the thought came to my head “I’m not thinking about h! I’m not fiending, sick, nothing!” It felt like a monkey off of my back. Since being on methadone, things haven’t been perfect but they’re a shit ton better than before! I am now able to work on my traumas and mental health problems. I’ve been on methadone for 3 years and although I’ve relapsed, I’ve never become strung out because I’m able to think clearly about why I did what I did afterward and not fiend.

      If I had any money at all I would help you get into the clinic tomorrow. I could possibly ask my dad since I haven’t been able to hold a job for awhile due to my PTSD unfortunately. Also, since you lost your job, have you looked into food stamps? It can be a short term thing but if you tell them your situation and that you have no food they can give you expedited food stamps usually in just a few days or less.

      Thank you for the update on your life. I’ll keep you in my prayers!

      Posted by Nicole | September 21, 2015, 6:02 pm
      • Replacing one drug with another doesnt work. Yes, you’re productive but only because you’re being given your drug for free. If someone gave you a gram of dope everyday, you’d be productive too because you wouldnt have to chase it. Methadone is harder to get off of than heroin plus clinics dont WANT you to get off of it because they want your business. The withdrawals last 4 times as long. Get clean, its not hard with the right recovery. Ive done it myself. Methadone is a poor solution to the problem, just like suboxone. Stop using, deal with the week or two of withdrawal, then start hitting meetings and working the program. Drugs to keep you off drugs dont work as youve shown. Mikael is clearly still using if hes soliciting the internet for money.

        Posted by Jojo | September 24, 2015, 10:15 pm
      • Jojo –

        I am glad you were able to quit using drugs cold turkey and wish with all my heart that I had been able to achieve long term sobriety. Unfortunately. After methadone I was able to productively do that. As you may have read in my comment above, i have some severe mental health problems that I was using h to numb away and mask it. Take away the mask, the complex PTSD, anxiety and depression came back immediately with a vengeance and I ended up on suicide watch in 3 different rehabs because of it. Right before starting h, I probably should’ve been on suicide watch because I had just been raped and my family was not supportive (in fact they blamed me) and was unable to cope with life on the most basic level. So take away h, and I was right back to where I was – suicidal. But this time even worse because I was dealing with my original problems plus the new ones presented by h withdrawal. Methadone has literally saved my life. It has also allowed me to work on the deeper issues contributed to my addiction, like my CPTSD and what contributed to it which I now realize is much more complex than the one rape but also includes childhood trauma as well. I’m also able to work on finding the right meds for my anxiety and depression. After being cold turkey clean for 4 months I still wasn’t even close to being able to do that stuff!

        Before actually getting on methadone I shared some of the same sentiments as you, and other myths like that it gets in your bone marrow due to the rumors I heard in rehabs or 12 step mtgs. However since being on methadone I’ve realized a lot of that stuff isn’t true for me – mind you every clinic and everyone’s body is different. Also, if you taper correctly with the help of the Doctor you won’t get sick ever. You taper down in small increments like 1-3 mg a week. I was not aware of this initiallty and thought getting on md would be a bad idea cuz you’d have to kick (cold turkey or rapid taper) bc I wasn’t aware of the way they do it. Like rehab, the treatment center makes all the difference in the world as well. I have been blessed because not only is it a awesome treatment center but I can drive there in under 5 min.

        I no longer care if people think they I’m not truly “clean” since I’m on methadone and my other prescriptions for anxiety and depression. They don’t know my story or how many times I tried getting clean the “normal” way or the other mental health issues I’ve been struggling with since age 8. I am STILL struggling with my mental health really badly. Right now I just can’t add anything else to my life, like 4 months of post acute withdrawals like last time. I already have enough on my plate.

        TL;DR – I’m sharing my experience strength and hope and whether fortunately or unfortunately methadone is the only thing that is working for me right now. It saved my lie. Because of my positive experience I felt it would be appropriate to share with Mikeal what had worked for me maybe it will the a miracle in his life too.

        Posted by Nicole | September 24, 2015, 11:39 pm
      • JoJo that is a very glib, and rather odd thing to say to somebody who has been trying, and failing to stop using. I am glad you were able to quit without any help; and if dope sickness only lasted one to two weeks, you got out very easy! I was an opiate addict for 5 years, and I had gone 16 days without at times. Day 16 was just as bad as day 1, and I could not manage to ever get past withdrawal. I finally did things right and got into a program with Suboxone. I have been clean for a year now, and I continue to taper down Suboxone. Within the next 6 months I should be able to get away from Suboxone as well. Had it not been for Suboxone though I would be in year 6 of my addiction, hopeless and broke, or dead. To tell Mikeal who has not been able to successfully do things without assistance to date, to ‘suck it up’ and go cold turkey is very insensitive, ignorant, and dangerous. He needs a solution that can be final, and Suboxone will do that. Methadone might too; however, he would probably be better off trying the Suboxone route first.

        I usually see those type of comments from non addicts who just don’t understand why a drug addict, especially an opiate addict, doesn’t “just quit and be done with it ….” – yet you claim to be a former addict and that is EXACTLY what you just told someone who is suffering though this, and may have a god option finally. Pretty unbelievable.

        Posted by MDE427 | June 24, 2016, 5:29 am
  16. A wonderful program for opiate addicts is Vivitrol. I have seen much success from this program.. Just a thought

    Posted by Eugene M Janik | June 27, 2016, 2:43 pm
    • Vivitrol worked for me and my bf. Honestly it’s the only thing that helped me stay clean. Its a miracle drug. Subs do work but I would just sell mine to buy dope. Same goes for methadone. Vivitrol is awesome I had no side effects and you are 100% clean. You can’t do opiates so it’s pointless to even try. If you’re thinking about getting clean this is the best way esp. If you know you need that extra little bit of help.

      Posted by Siouxsie | October 12, 2016, 8:16 am
  17. Hey any update on Mikeal? I just watched the episode and I really feel for both of them.

    Posted by Brigitte | November 8, 2016, 8:02 pm
    • I am Mikeal’s Mother, Danielle and would just like all of you who are wondering to know that he has now been 100% clean for 15 months, with no relapse. It has been a long road but he is the best mentally and physically that I have seen him in almost 10 years. I know tomorrow is not a given but never lose hope, never give up. I hope and pray Sarah is doing good as well.

      Posted by Danielle | April 11, 2017, 12:13 pm
  18. Former IV Heroin Addict (5 years, co-using with my boyfriend now fiancé, 2-3 grams a day each, $200-$350 a day EACH), now both clean for a year, here. Just curious, if that is ‘Mikael’ really commenting on this page, WHY AREN’T ANY OF YOU ASKING HIM WHAT IN THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HIM???? He was OBVIOUSLY still using at the time of commenting, asking for $120 dollars, the comments later about seeing a suboxone doctor….We didn’t steal, sell ourselves, pawn things, or beg for money, but other than a place to live, and food enough to survive, we spent our money on heroin. You have to want to be sober, it’s not enough to have others force you. If you’re not disgusted with yourself and the cycle and routine of using heroin, or drugs, YOU’RE NOT GOING TO QUIT!!!! Meanwhile, what in the name of Goodness are you doing begging strangers for drug money? I’m really baffled that finding yourself begging strangers (who KNOW you’re a massive dope fiend) for money, isn’t a big enough eye opener for you.

    Posted by Casper | January 7, 2017, 4:39 am
    • Of course, as soon as I read that comment, that was much different from those he had posted before, I knew he was on. All the details, the references to God and church, and so on, you know that tune.
      Anyway, his mom posted above that he’s been 15 months clean now, do good for them

      Posted by Pandora | May 9, 2017, 6:36 am
  19. Anyone know anything about him now?

    Posted by Karen tucker | February 25, 2017, 2:48 am
    • I would like to clarify his post was in September of 2015, he did relapse, obviously. With the help of a good program and the grace of God he is still 100% clean no relapse since January 2016. I am only sharing to give hope to any others that feel as they have failed due to a relapse. please don’t quit trying to quite, never give up. Keep trying as many times as it takes.

      Posted by Danielle | May 9, 2017, 7:37 am
      • You should ask if he’s willing to a reddit AMA (Ask me anything) it would help so many people.

        Posted by Ashley | May 9, 2017, 8:20 pm

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