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Episode 205: Sierra

Season 15, Episode 2


Sierra
Age: 19
Location: Redding, California
Addiction: Meth

What’s Memorable: Everything is memorable. Her eyes, her bare feet, how the words coming out of her mouth mean something to her and nothing to anyone else.  Every person in her entire support system is an addict in recovery and she felt like she needed war stories but then couldn’t handled them when they happened. Sierra’s brain cannot deal with drugs. Donna shows up for this one in a big way. I don’t think that any other interventionist could have done this intervention better than she did.

Official Synopsis: The daughter of a small business owner, Sierra was an honor student with dreams of college and a career in journalism. But when a double-dealing artist charmed his way into her mother’s life, he gambled away their home and the bottom fell out of Sierra’s world, leading to a frightening drug-induced psychotic break. Today, the 19-year-old is a feral junkie, scrapping for a fix on the streets of Northern California.

Original Air Date: March 2016
Interventionist: Donna

Categories: Childhood Sexual Abuse, Donna, Meth, Most Disturbing Episodes, Most Mentally Compromised Addicts, Season 15, Traumatic Incident

Discussion

49 Responses to “Episode 205: Sierra”

  1. This is so scary. My addiction may not have been a ride in the park, especially phYsicslly and is hard everyday- but I can’t imagine living in a meth induced mental prison as she does. So sad to watch.

    Posted by Joe | March 13, 2016, 11:40 pm
  2. I never thought anyone would ever beat Cristy for craziness, but this girl took the cake. I’m glad she got help and I hope she continues to stay clean. Meth is totally insane and awful.

    Posted by t.toro | March 14, 2016, 2:10 am
  3. I loved her. I don’t know why but I was really drawn to her and found her to be really beautiful and likable even during the worst scenes. I realize I probably wouldn’t find her as cute and endearing if I had to deal with that daily, but something about her really made me like her.

    I liked her mom, and her whole support system, actually. maybe it’s because they’re recovering addicts but they handled it with grace and patience. one day she will realize how blessed she truly is.

    on Intervention’s facebook, her mom said that unfortunately Sierra moved back to Redding and it was “not a good decision”. I hope she gets back on track soon.

    Posted by tiny | March 14, 2016, 5:49 am
    • I really liked the mom too. You could see how dedicated she was so I’m really rooting for this family. Sad to hear she moved back.

      Posted by Collette | March 15, 2016, 4:55 am
    • I felt the same way, this was one of the most heart wrenching episodes for me. When she said, “I like hugs. Do you like old friends?” I felt you could really see her soul and how much she needed love. I hope she will healthy and happy in the future and always.

      Posted by JennS | March 18, 2016, 1:50 pm
      • I practically cried.. imagine seeing your childhood friend in that kind of pain. Heart-wrenching. Hugs for Sierra and her loved ones. California is one of the most beautiful areas, be well and enjoy exploring it lovely ❤️

        Posted by Gloria | March 20, 2016, 11:34 am
    • great comment and I fully agree.

      all the best to sierra’s family and friends. you guys were really special to watch and brought tears to my eyes.

      Posted by AMD | March 24, 2016, 6:55 pm
  4. As someone who has seen every single episode of Intervention, going all the way back to season 1, this episode was the most dramatic of them all. So was the last episode. This season is turning out to be pretty intense.

    Posted by tom | March 14, 2016, 7:57 am
  5. I was surpised to see that there wasn’t an underlying diagnosis discovered in treatment. Maybe it really all was just meth induced? I hope she’s doing well. I was also drawn to her.

    Posted by Elizabeth | March 14, 2016, 5:34 pm
  6. My heart breaks for everybody in this episode. I could almost see how badly she wanted to be free from meth when she came out of the jail and just started hugging her sister (I think?) and even though she was still rambling I felt there was a huge part of her screaming that she wanted to be free. I’m so glad she was able to get help because she looked SO good after the intervention. My fingers are really crossed for this girl.

    Posted by Collette | March 15, 2016, 4:33 am
  7. This chick was so methed out even the producers had no idea what to make of it

    Posted by Rinna | March 15, 2016, 7:07 am
  8. Wow its crazy that meth was her DOC she looked like she was in complete hell. Really scary the scenes where she was screaming and running around by a big ass main hwy looking like she was getting ready to jet out into the middle of it. This girl is seriously lucky she got some help before she really hurt herself or someone else. So young to- good luck to her.

    Posted by kristy | March 15, 2016, 6:57 pm
  9. I found it interesting that we never actually saw her doing meth even once, at least not that I can remember. I think that the childhood sexual abuse has effected her a lot more than she realized. It’s very rare that sexual crimes are prosecuted, and even more rare when they are prosecuted to the extent that the perpetrator ends up being in prison for life, so I can only imagine what she went through as a child for this to happen. I don’t think she was just using to rebel as her mom put it, I think that may have been part of it, but I imagine she was in such immense pain that she was using meth as a means to cope and is disassociating from herself to the point it lead to the psychotic break. I believe that she may have other mental health problems as well, such as PTSD, underlying the drugs and psychosis. This episode was really hard to watch because it reminded me so much of when my brother had his psychotic break, mixed with my PTSD from sexual abuse. I was denial of how much it effected me for a long time. In fact, I was in so much denial of what happened when I was about 5 that I literally forgot about it for 15 years until I was raped at age 20 then it randomly came into my memory, and it still is very patchy. I am really hoping that she is doing ok now, and pray that she can work through everything she is dealing with.

    Posted by Nicole | March 23, 2016, 9:57 am
  10. Thank you for your kind words. It means a lot to me when others reach out as you have even if we never meet in person. May peace be with you too!

    Posted by Nicole | April 11, 2016, 8:59 am
  11. Sierra, you are so so so beautiful.

    Posted by Tanya | May 1, 2016, 5:21 pm
  12. Sierra is doing well .. We are friends on FB and she has been back to Redding to see her family. She is still with Brandt.

    Posted by Anon | May 17, 2016, 8:29 pm
  13. We are also friends on Facebook.

    She isn’t with Brandt.

    I added her for sheer interest to see how she is doing. Although there doesn’t appear to post anything regarding drugs or usage.

    Sadly her posts are quite negative and obvious dislike for law enforcement.

    My heart broke for her and she definitely has a magnetic personality. Quite beautiful. I pray she continues to remain sober.

    There are also comments about the show and how it portrayed her. I’m assuming she was unhappy with how it portrayed her.

    Posted by ANON | July 20, 2016, 8:33 pm
  14. I have gone through meth induced psychosis while using various other substances, it took over 10yrs of use for me to go through over 11 treatment centers and memory loss and psychotic breaks to come back slowly. She has a chance. It takes a very slow process. While i used heroin, meth, crack, and hallicinagens with excessive alcohol, ectasy/ molly and inhalants, i am finally clean now at age 21, with almost 2 1/2 years clean. I have completed my bachelors in 2yrs after leaving 4 dif colleges and have all honors inHs and college. Its common for rape victims like us to destroy and self sabbotage, thats what ive studied in nursing and also in my psychology/SBs major.

    Posted by Alana Faye | August 11, 2016, 10:45 pm
    • (Edit- age 22) memory is bad sorry have to remember my name and family often so still struggleing. I believe since my symptoms were found to remain after, hers may too. I am diagnosed bipolar rapid cycling schitzoaffective, so these symptoms are common to recurr and are commonly seen with polysubstance use and methamphetamine addiction as well due to the affect on the dopamines within the brain.

      Posted by Alana faye | August 11, 2016, 10:53 pm
  15. I truly hope she can come out of it with time; my memories are still not back from childhood, and this episode made me cry the entire time. I had panic attacks and forced myself to watch. I pray for her and her family. It hurts everyone around and involved in this disease. My brother is going through meth induced psychosis and steroid psychosis currently so I still have to face the consequences of my actions and the effects of my lifestyle on my younger siblings and my family… The guilt an addict feels is so great and tremendous and no one can beat an addict up as bad as their own psychological playground of inner demons.

    Posted by Alana faye | August 11, 2016, 10:49 pm
  16. I too am a rape victim and although my drug of choice is heroin, I can still relate. I wanted to destroy myself after the rape. I had already endured a lot of abuse during childhood including molestation and being sexually harassed by a 6’8 600 pound coworker, but the rape was the final straw. I could no longer function like a normal human being. I needed someone or something just to make me be able to handle basic things like having a part time job and when I did heroin (at first) I could do those things and actually feel ok. Well of course it was too good to be true so I ended up spiraling downhill, not just w drugs but after the rape (I was a virgin before it) I felt like I had to do anything a guy said even if I didn’t want to so I kinda went down a slut spiral as well. I really was hurting. I was so hurt that I was numb. But about 10 months after the rape the numbness wore off and suddenly I could feel EVERYTHING. So that’s when I turned to heroin as my only coping skill I knew would even make a dent in my pain. I also felt so despicable and disgusting as a human being. Like I was “used merchandise” or whatever they say. I hated it. Finally I went to rehab, mostly to work on my trauma because I knew my addiction was in direct correlation to it. I went to spencer recovery in Laguna beach CA and it actually helped a lot. I met my ex BF of two years there and he was a HUGE help in me working through the rape and all my other family trauma etc. But of course I self sabotaged (we both did) and long story short we relapsed and went to treatment and then my family and the treatment center manipulated me into moving back to my home state of UT from CA “to support me” only to abandon me the moment I got home. I had lost my BF, my entire support system, the beach, and the place I was finally starting to call home. I think that was probably one of the lowest points of my life. I literally had NO ONE. Through an abusive relationship I was introduced to methadone (God works in mysterious ways) and ended up at the clinic which saved my life for sure. I still struggle daily with serious depression, ADHD and post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) but slowly – very slowly – have been making progress. I think the most frustrating part to me was hearing people talk in mtgs and stuff about how great sober life was bc for me sober and using life were both excruciatingly painful. Methadone gave me a shot at being able to feel like it was possible. So I am eternally grateful. Although my addiction is better, not perfect (I still drink or get higj on the rare occasion) it’s way better than before. Right now my PTSD and depression are the main things taking over. I honestly wonder if Sierra has severe PTSD to the point where she fully dissociates from herself and reality. People that have been through extreme Trauma for an extended period often need to dissociate to survive. I hope that is something her treatment team looked into. Sorry to talk about myself so much. But I can relate to Sierra a lot bc of the pain she is in you can see it on her eyes.

    Posted by Nicole | August 13, 2016, 3:30 am
  17. Just met her today for the first time. She was friendly, talkative and looked good. She was with some street people, so I’m sure her situation isn’t ideal. With that said and having many interactions with homeless people, she was well kept and pleasant.

    I hope she finds her way.

    Posted by Jim | August 29, 2016, 11:41 am
  18. This is the first time I have ever been moved to tears during an episode of Intervention. I was so very touched by her mother and all of her friends. I thought they were so strong and show how much they really love Sierra and really want to help her. And I feel like it wasn’t emphasized enough just how young she is! She is still a teenager. She has her whole life ahead of her. But teenagers aren’t known for making the best decisions. I truly pray for Sierra and her family and friends. I hope she stays sober and does all the things she wants to do in life. She is a smart beautiful girl. People all over are pulling for you Sierra. I have never been touched by an episode to look up to see how the person is doing. Just you. Best wishes.

    Posted by Jess | September 19, 2016, 9:07 am
  19. I often wonder with episodes as memorable as this–what will Sierra do with her life when she gets clean? I mean, forget most jobs outside of the recovery sphere.

    I am a former drug addict and criminal. I got clean, went to college, had my record expunged, and I am now a middle school teacher. For addicts like Sierra though, that door is now forever closed because her addiction was exposed on television. Yes, she gets to live clean and sober, and that is a wonderful thing. It bugs me though to know that her life, and the lives of others on this show, is limited.

    Posted by Madeline | October 5, 2016, 11:18 am
    • I think you bring up an interesting point. I know that 12 step programs teach that once you’re an addict, you’re always an addict, I think that is a very limiting way to look at things. With all of these participants lives being televised at their very worst state I can imagine that for them the once an addict always an addict theory is much more relevant because that is all we (we as in anyone who has access to the internet – so billions of people) know about them. Any potential employers can look them up and find their episode. I know they try to make things private by not posting last names, but people on here hade been able to find their Facebook, gofundme accounts, etc. without knowing a last name.

      Posted by Nicole | October 5, 2016, 3:12 pm
  20. Does anyone have any recent photos of Seirra? Showed my teenaged daughter her story and she couldn’t stop saying how beautiful she is. She wanted to see her after being sober and I can’t find any pics. Thank you

    Posted by Jennifer odell | November 29, 2016, 4:55 am
  21. Hi – anyone have any updates on sierra? :/

    Posted by Megan | January 1, 2017, 2:41 pm
  22. Her episode is on right now in Texas. I’m crying. This girl is beautiful and so lost. She is so angry with her mother. Maybe for not protecting her from molestation. Even in her psychosis and irrational thinking and speech she lashes out at her mom mainly. I hope she’s in a better place. Dayum I’m crying.

    Posted by Tracy W | February 21, 2017, 9:53 pm
  23. I would love to know how Sierra is doing now. I watched her episode the other day and I was truly haunted by it. I had never seen anyone like her and it broke my heart. The end of the episode said she had a brief relapse but immediately rededicated herself to treatment and I really hope she stuck with it because her brain couldn’t possibly take much more. She seemed so far gone already. She is too beautiful and I saw a lot of potential in her. I just hope she is living a happier and healthier life now.

    Posted by Shelly | June 25, 2017, 10:28 pm
  24. This girl really got to me. I was shocked to see how young men and women go through this. I hope Sierra is okay and would like to tell her that her story struck my heart and she will never be forgotten. God Bless Sierra. xo

    Posted by Lynn Lee | June 28, 2017, 6:59 am
  25. This is the craziest Intervention episode I’ve seen in terms of witnessing the addict under the influence. I’ve never seen what meth psychosis looks like. This episode to see it full blown in that way was shocking.

    Posted by Nadia | August 3, 2017, 1:43 pm
  26. This was one of the toughest episodes. It definitely was a tear jerker. I hope sierra is clean today

    Posted by Natasha | August 7, 2017, 9:27 am
  27. This was a doozy. I almost had to remind myself that this was the same person when they did the follow-up. Hopefully she’s kept herself on the right path ever since.

    And fully agreed about Donna btw. Given the hands that she was dealt during that situation, I don’t think she could have handled the whole thing any better. It kinda boggles my mind that she gets such a bad rap among the commenters here — her work with Tanisha not too long was stellar, as well.

    Posted by Kei | August 29, 2017, 5:31 pm
  28. I hate when people say “I am a former addict”. NO. ONCE AN ADDICT ALWAYS AN ADDICT. Just because a person stops drinking and doing drugs and goes to meetings and has a sponsor and works the steps, doesn’t mean you are free from the DISEASE THAT IS ADDICTION. PERIOD. END OF STORY.

    Posted by Sad | September 10, 2017, 7:52 pm
    • One size doesn’t fit all. Rather presumptuous of you to declare to other people.

      Posted by avobobo | October 17, 2017, 9:02 pm
      • Thank you, Avobobo. People need to be reminded of that. I am 7yrs clean from heroin and meetings/steps weren’t for me. I refuse to see myself as a junkie forever. The end result is I am happy and free from my addiction. Best of all, I didn’t become a codependent coffee addict at the same time. Few 12 steppers can claim the same.

        Posted by (: Smiles :) | October 18, 2017, 5:12 pm
    • Hi, you realize that when someone says ‘I’m a former addict’, what they mean is ‘I don’t do drugs anymore’… Besides, the “once an addict always an addict” phrase is a phrase, that AA, rightfully or not, enforces into their followers’ physches. This might be right and helpful to some people, but not for everyone. Some people need to not constantly be dragged back to their misery, in order to maintain sobriety.

      Posted by Pandora | October 22, 2017, 7:27 am
  29. I found her facebook today and she is 7 months sober as of 9/14/17. Brandt, the boyfriend, is 6 months sober. It looks like just this month they started dating again and their friends/family are all commenting that they are hoping that they stay on the path of sobriety now that they just got back together. She posted a new profile pic and looks very healthy/clean/good.

    Posted by Elise | September 29, 2017, 5:03 pm
  30. Can someone post a link to her FB.

    Posted by Andy | October 18, 2017, 5:38 pm

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