you're reading...

About Dizzy

I’m writing this because it occurred to me that you might like to who I am and why I’m so into this Intervention show that I made a friggin website about it. Here’s my story.

My mother was a heroin addict until she was 8 months pregnant with me. I was born a baby addicted to heroin. I’ve been told that if I ever do the drug I will be immediately addicted. This has adequately scared me away from ever doing heroin and I consider myself lucky.

After I was born my mom switched to alcohol and cocaine until she found meth in the late 80’s, which she continues to use today at age 68.

A few years ago I watched my father die of liver cancer from alcoholism.  I moved to his town to take care of him for 6 of the last months of his life. I watched him continue to drink about a case of beer everyday, even when he was yellow with jaundice and acted more like someone with advanced dementia than cancer, and I watched him snort line after line of morphine to deal with the pain. I was with him when he died.

Mother, father, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents. Addiction is literally in my blood. I was raised deep in it, I understand it more than I understand most things, and I experience it myself every day.  There is nothing that has affected my relationships and the choices I make more than addiction has.

I come from a small town in Washington State that has experienced a sad and dramatic de-population due to meth.  I could call my hometown dead, and a quick drive through downtown would make that point, but it’s not really. It may be populated seemingly exclusively by meth (and now heroin) addicts, but those people are alive and they’re my people. They’re addicts who need help. They are my family and old friends and the family and friends of all the people I know there.

I left there more than 20 years ago, when the meth epidemic was just starting to take hold. Since then, I’ve faced my own addiction battles. In my mid-20’s I developed a solid case of functional alcoholism. I drank more than any person should ever drink while still making it to work most days  I thought that drunk me was the real me, that my identity was contingent upon being drunk. One especially hungover Saturday morning I had the epiphany that all the pain I was experiencing was simply the cost of drinking. I deserved it. This was the price I had to pay for drinking the way I did. And I wondered if what I got from drinking was worth the cost.

I voluntarily went into treatment on Christmas Eve in 2000 because my plan was to drink into complete oblivion for my Christmas vacation.  I decided that rehab would be a better idea than drinking myself to death. It was a good decision.

I was sober for almost 7 years. I was fully in the program, had a sponsor, started meetings for women new to recovery, followed the steps to a tee.  I went back to school and got my degree, with honors. I wrote essays that won awards. I started making art that I enjoyed making and people enjoyed seeing. I knew that I didn’t need alcohol to be the best me.  I became that productive, smart, creative me that I always wanted to be. I was so far removed from who I thought I was when I was drinking and my identity was no longer contingent on being a drinker.  I had found a way, I was happy.

My mother told me she wanted to kick meth. I went up there to help her through withdrawals. We got through them, she started using again a few weeks later. As soon I got home from that trip I started thinking that drinking a cider would be no big deal, I could probably drink like a regular person now right?  I mean I hadn’t drank in almost 7 years, of course I could have a cider and it wouldn’t change anything. I would still be in recovery, it would just be a relapse. I would stop after that one cider. And if not, I wouldn’t drink the next day or anything. And if I did, I would never ever drink like I did before. I’d never be that person again. I had conquered alcoholism! This would not affect me. I get to be a regular person now. I’m not an alcoholic anymore, right?

So I walked into the grocery store and bought a 6-pack of cider, took it home and drank it alone. That was 10 years ago. I haven’t stopped drinking since. I’m much better at being an alcoholic now than I was before, most of time, but I certainly can’t deny the grip alcohol has on me.

I’ve been on most sides of addiction.  There’s a reason why I watch this show, there’s a reason why I feel the need to document it.  It’s not because I want to see people at their worst, exploited, semi-consciously performing for the reality cameras.  It’s because the addicts and the families on Intervention are people I strongly relate to in ways that I can’t even explain. It’s because Intervention is a show that actually saves those peoples’ lives.

I know that I’m not the only one with a complicated relationship to addiction that obsessively watches Intervention. That’s why this site exists.


Categories: Updates


119 Responses to “About Dizzy”

  1. That was brave as hell of you, Dizzy. I hope someday you’re able to get the best of your demons. I have major respect for your courage.

    Posted by Cheryl | March 31, 2015, 10:09 pm
  2. Wow, Dizzy. Hats off to you and thanks so much for sharing. Your story is incredibly touching, and I truly hope that one day you can find your way back to happiness. I have only been sober 3 1/2 years, and I know that voice will always be in the back of my head, telling me I can drink like a normal person. We are only human. YOU are only human. Thanks for all that you do. I truly believe that this site has helped many, and could be part of why Intervention was revived. You are a wonderful person 🙂

    Posted by Samantha | April 1, 2015, 3:26 am
  3. Dear Dizzy,

    Talk about courage and success – You are amazing. With all the CRAP you got, you’ve made it this far by giving, giving, giving.

    You’ve been a care-taker to (probably) everyone in your life. It wasn’t your choice, it was put on you by people that only thought about themselves and you are so smart and energetic and GOOD, you were able to do it.

    I think that starting to drink again was a way to say, you cannot take care of everyone anymore. You must take care of yourself. Time to woman-up and put yourself first.

    Love is a verb. Only people in your life who love you are ones willing to do things for you. Cut out everyone who doesn’t and focus on yourself.

    You definitely deserve it.

    Sending you prayers,

    Posted by Wilson | April 1, 2015, 3:29 am
  4. It sounds to me that you may be starting the road to recovery again, someday. I too, have addiction deep in my family blood. I was lucky enough to make it to a therapist to deal with PTSD before addiction ruined my life. Please know you are not alone in this. No matter the path you take, you have helped people by simply being honest and brave. Thank you.

    Posted by Jenn | April 1, 2015, 7:33 am
  5. Awesome Dizzy! Your story is very similar to my own

    Posted by Ash | April 1, 2015, 9:20 am
  6. Dizzy,
    thank you for sharing your story with us. I have to admit, I wondered if you were just a big fan of the show or if you had a deeper connection with intervention, like most of us do. You are very brave for telling us about your addiction, and I hope that you can be okay again, and leave the alcohol behind when you are ready. I, too, struggle with addiction, as did my mother…in fact she is from and lives in Pt. Townsend, WA…which is also getting hit with the meth epidemic. I woke up in 2007 to my boyfriend,dead, of an overdose. I overdosed on oxycontin and xanax the next day, which landed me in the hospital. The fact that I used more than him, made me feel unbarably guilty-and still does. And since then I have just been trying to piece my life together. I now attend college, have a job, boyfriend of 4 years, and bought my grandpa’s house (he passed away from alcoholism related illness), but am still using. Like you, I am good at being a functional user. I don’t do the drugs I used to because everyone would be onto me.. and now I have no choice but to be responsible with money, so it’s a lot of weed and some pills, sometimes cocaine, but even after all this time…I still feel guilty everyday for not learning my lesson when he died. I hope that people like you and i can and will make it one day. Watching intervention and connecting with this community really helps, but I know one day I’ll have to get my shit together. Thank you again Dizzy for talking about your addiction, just know you inspired me to share my story…one that i haven’t spoken of since 2007. Sending you warm vibes and love, from Michelle. Stay strong girl.

    Posted by chelle | April 1, 2015, 8:01 pm
    • Thank you so much for sharing your story, and for your support. I really appreciate knowing there are people like you out there who relate.

      Posted by Dizzy | April 5, 2015, 8:34 pm
    • Dizzy & Chelle

      You both are brave as hell sharing your story of addiction hats off to you both, and everyone else. Does it really matter how long you’ve been sober? NO its the hard work you put into it that makes the world of difference. We all have a path in life we all have bumps in the road; Get back on that bike, get into the drivers seat and TRY again what’s the harm in all that? NOTHING!!!! Anyone that has an addiction can overcome this, I just prey that you all realize your worth it. You all have a choice and that choice is to never stop trying. I wish you all the very best I hope you all find your angel to guide and watch over you.

      Posted by Ice | January 17, 2017, 7:05 pm
  7. Ps. If you ever need someone to chat with or rant to, clearly you have my email. Feel free to use it. Thanks again Dizzy for all the work you have put into this site! We all appreciate it.

    Posted by chelle | April 1, 2015, 8:29 pm
  8. I was completely breathless, reading this. I just don’t know what to say. Dizzy you are amazing, resilient, self-aware, kind-hearted, and intelligent. Your story broke my heart but I have to say also that your writing is really compelling. Thank you for doing what you do…thank you for creating this space. Will be praying for you and all those here who have opened up and shared their stories.

    Posted by Kat R. | April 2, 2015, 6:09 am
  9. It restores my faith in humanity to see that all of the comments to your story are positive. Thank you for this site and thank you for sharing your story. I never wondered why you ran this site – I thought like me you connected to the show and cared about what happened to people afterwards. I grew up with a violent alcoholic and speed addicted mother who, unbeknownst to me, continued to take speed until shortly before she died at the age of 82. She was a stellar AA member for 37 years – everyones sponsor and nobody’s sponsee. When she was dying I found out that in 37 years of sitting in AA meetings she never told anyone about the horrible abuse that she inflicted upon me and allowed her boyfriends and friends to inflict upon me. I started this comment to talk about you and I see now that its all about my situation. I was scared straight at an early age when I became a black-out drinker. I cut myself off from addicts and the one criteria I had for a spouse was that they not be an addict. I will suffer from PTSD until the day I die (I’m 56) – I used to call it depression and anxiety and then I thought – “what the hell, I grew up in a war zone”. I think all children of active alcoholics grow up in a war zone and it sounds like you did too. I am always amazed when people are blissful after 90 days of treatment. Perhaps they feel this way because they are in a safe supportive environment. Life is hard and God knows you know that the hard way. All of this rambling comes straight from the heart. I don’t know why I am saying it but I am. I guess I want you to know that you are not alone and that you are not “bad” because you have relapsed. I pray that you love yourself enough to get off the addiction roller coaster. In the meantime, its obvious that the people who read your site love you and support you. Thank you for your honesty and your contribution to all of us who watch this show because it confirms the reality that we grew up in and live with. Blessings, metta and prayers – all good things to you. We are you and you are us. Thank you.

    Posted by Christina Cowell | April 4, 2015, 4:29 am
    • christina, thx for the engaging story. One thing I wasn’t clear about – was your mother using meth the whole 37 years she was an AA member, or did she have periods of sobriety?

      Posted by dan | April 4, 2015, 9:04 pm
      • Thank you for the question Dan. I felt like the world’s biggest narcissist writing part of my own story when the focus is on Dizzy. After my mother gave birth to me in 1958, she wanted to lose her “baby weight”. Her OB, who was very well-respected throughout her career, put her on speed. My mother loved it and stayed on it @50 years. Back in the day there was no meth in Greenwich Village. We were an affluent family and my mother was a lawyer – a criminal lawyer. She would take whatever drugs she could get from her clients – black beauties and “turn-arounds” (named for truckers who would take the drug to drive across country and then had the energy to turn around and drive back because they were on speed for 6,000 miles) were big then. My mother was a rage-acholoic in addition to being an alcoholic. I think she was crawling out of her skin most of the time between the booze and the speed and since I was an only child I got the brunt of her constant abuse. So the drugs have changed but the carnage of families has continued. Sorry for the long answer – I haven’t had my second cup of coffee (my drug of choice:)

        Posted by Christina Cowell | April 5, 2015, 5:50 am
  10. Such an “honest” story, Dizzy. I battled “functional alcholism” for 25 and have 8 years of sobriety, as of 2 days ago.. We could all fall back into old patterns and I take nothing for granted. Thanks for your story. Wishing you the best!

    Posted by dan | April 4, 2015, 9:01 pm
  11. ah, thanks for clarifying Christina. And don’t feel like a narcissist lol. We all have our tales of woe.
    I was born in ’58, as well, and started dabbling in amphetamines when i was about 20, so i remember Black Beauties, as well. They were given out pretty frequently back then.
    Glad that you’ve come out of that abusive childhood and are able to share it with us. And i hear ya on the coffee!!!

    Posted by dan | April 5, 2015, 12:53 pm
  12. 🙂

    Happy Holiday to one and all!

    Posted by Christina Cowell | April 5, 2015, 2:12 pm
  13. Thank you for sharing your incredible story, Dizzy. I hope you will again find sobriety and some peace in your life.

    Posted by Ellen | April 6, 2015, 10:01 am
  14. Dizzy – thank you for sharing your story. It takes courage to put yourself out there like that. I admire your willingness to do so.

    Posted by Crystal | April 12, 2015, 9:07 am
  15. Thank u so so much Dizzy for sharing your story and producing this awesome awesome website!!! I believe in you and I myself am a recovering heroin addict but can never get more than 6 months together but knowing I’m not alone and there are others like me gives me hope and courage!! All thanks to you love!!! Never give up & You are in my prayers and i hope u find peace and happiness!!

    Posted by Rhiannon | April 14, 2015, 7:40 am
  16. Your story is super real! Just wondering if you have a Facebook as well so that people can reach out to you? There is no where on the page to private message you and don’t take this wrong but some addicts don’t like to go so public but want to reach out to inspire you or for help of themselves maybe adding a way to private message or a link to a Facebook so other addicts can be supportive of what you battle daily

    Posted by Just A Girl | April 20, 2015, 5:21 am
  17. Hi Dizzy, I could relate to your story. Here it goes. My brother was in the US Air Force, many decades ago, where he was landed in the Phillipines. He met & fell in love with a Melanie. Later, they had a daughter. To make a long story short, he caught Melanie in bed with another guy. This was my brother’s very first love & he fell HARD. Well, when he finally came home, though I was very young, I knew there was something “not right” with Teddy. Come to me real fast bec. (he wasn’t a drinker) he was drinking if not drunk whenever I would see him. To make an even longer story shorter, he died @ 56 yrs old due to alcoholizum. To lose a loved one from addiction SUCKS!!!

    Posted by diane miller | April 20, 2015, 7:15 am
  18. Dizzy, thank you for sharing your story. I have been following this site for some time, and deeply appreciate both your writing skill and compassion towards both addicts and families. Good luck on your own journey.

    Posted by COMMENTER | May 2, 2015, 6:25 pm
  19. you need to stop drinking. quit fooling around. my only child, my daughter died last august. she was going to work every day also. But her body just quit. 2 months in intensive care. horrible way to die. horrible to watch. I have maintained my sobriety during and since. It would be dis- honorable to her to drink or drug.

    Posted by chris | May 8, 2015, 8:43 pm
  20. Dizzy the exact same thing happened to me I relapsed after 13 years of sobriety was out for two years and have come back in the sobriety and now I have almost 12 years a sobriety. It was insanely difficult to come back and get sober. The easier, softer way is always sobriety. I appreciate your work on this website very very much! I love this show intervention and I’ve seen just about every episode. I’m so glad it came back. I pray that you find the best solution for you that makes you happy and free.

    Posted by Christopher | May 11, 2015, 12:30 am
  21. Is it bad if I get messed up then binge intervention? Almost like well at least I’m not that bad…but not really I sympathize with each and every one of them.

    Posted by lisa | May 12, 2015, 7:32 pm
    • I hear ya. I think lots of us watch to 1) feel better about ourselves because we’re not where they are AND 2) to see ourselves and our addictions being played out by someone else. It’s like a way of keeping ourselves in check while convincing ourselves that we’re not that bad. I think the psychology of Intervention fans is a fascinating topic for research, someone should do totally that.

      Posted by Dizzy | May 12, 2015, 8:05 pm
      • Just curious if your a Gemini . me and me other Gemini friend totally read into everything and psychoanalyse everyone. Not in a a judging condensing type way. We are just curious and always thinking!

        Posted by lisa | May 12, 2015, 10:13 pm
      • I completely agree with what Dizzy wrote, and yeah I agree I’d love someone to research it.

        & re: Lisa I am also definitely like that but I am a Capricorn.

        Posted by Halley | May 15, 2015, 4:33 pm
  22. But seriously this is close to me. Both my parents are alcoholics. My mom (who is truly evil I have no trespassings and all that) would only drink on the weekends. The courts tried to tell me she was such a witch all week cuz she was waiting for her weekend fix. My dad on the other hand drinks all day and all night. Nice guy, never gets loud or sloppy like my mom but seriously is always drinking. I am scared for his health. He also smokes like 2 packs a day. His job made him get his z card physical and hes supposed to get a scan of the lungs, but he won’t. He lives in his parents house which is paid off so he’s got no rent no bills in general but spends all his money at the bar. Its ridiculous . I have 2 kids youd think he would be helping us ( he’s got a great steady job for 27 years) but no he not needs to borrow money from me. Its like I got rent, electric, propane, 2 kids one who needs to go Boston a lot for checkups from meningitis which living on an hour island is $60 just to get out of here. I did think at one point maybe he was doing some kind of drug but working on the boats they test. Found out at the bar he plays $26 a game keno! I just wish he could get it together for grand kids . he lost his liscense the same time as me 10 years ago and has done nothing to get it back. He just walks and buses to the bars. I know my kids would love for grandpa to take them for a ride! And how about cleaning your house? My sons 4 and just saw his grandpas house for the first time last week, he lives right down the street. Any who then me I’ve drank beer mostly, vodka a few times put me in hospital and handcuffed etc blacked out mad. I tried weed made me feel really weird and paranoid think I’m allergic to it. Then when I was 17 someone introduced to me to cocaine. That was it. It made me feel normal talkative and great. I never needed to find another drug. And now still 10 years later still struggling with binge episodes of drinking and doing coke. I take coke cuz I really don’t like being drunk and it sobers me up

    Posted by lisa | May 12, 2015, 8:00 pm
  23. It took me a while to decide to share what makes Intervention so special to me. I am the grandchild of a verbally abusive alcoholic. I grew up seeing and being babysat by my grandparents several times a week so this was a person I spent a lot of time with. Even though I was living in it, it wasn’t something we ever talked about and rarely acknowledged. I actually didn’t know what alcoholism was until I was a teenager.

    I had been watching Intervention for many years before it dawned on me last year and maybe even because of this site…every episode, I felt in some way so intimately familiar with the pain of the addicts’ families. Not just sympathy for them but I actually could feel those feelings of hurt and things unsaid. I finally realized that it was cathartic for me to see the family read their letters and put the secrets out in the open. I let myself remember how angry and sad and alone I felt growing up. This person in my life passed away many years ago, and they died in their addiction. Maybe things would have been different if we, as a family, stopped feeling ashamed and just dealt with it. Maybe not. But either way, I’ve forgiven and moved on and as cheesy as it is, Intervention is a big part of that.

    Posted by Kat R. | June 10, 2015, 7:21 pm
  24. Im wondering how you all find out the last names of them. Im curious bc people are friends with them on facebook and stuff. Theres a few im wanting to check on and this site is not giving any updates on them
    thank you

    Posted by Sonya York | July 19, 2015, 2:28 am
  25. Prayers to you Dizzy and to everyone going through it. I”m not there, but I feel I am walking a fine line.

    Posted by Lola | July 20, 2015, 2:27 pm
  26. There was a girl on one episode… she was young, pretty, dark hair addicted to meth and her name started with a K. it was a different name. One I’ve never heard before. There was a clip of her crying as she was smoking her pipe because she didn’t want to be a tweeker…. do you remember that one? What’s her name?

    Posted by jami | August 10, 2015, 8:03 pm
  27. Please email me if you know her name… I forgot to click the notify me option for follow up comments. Thanks!

    Posted by jami | August 10, 2015, 8:04 pm
  28. Me too, lola. walking the line.

    Dizzy, thanks for the time and effort you put into this site. You are appreciated.

    Posted by lolly | September 9, 2015, 2:05 pm
  29. Wow, amazing. It hurts to think that you are still drinking albeit not some raging alcoholic still you’re not living to your spiritual potential… Not that you don’t know this or anything, just expressing my sadness. I hope you can be sober again some day soon. You have created. Wonderful website. Thank you. Despite your current alcohol use you are still extremely productive, imagine what you could do without the alcohol? Alcohol sucks, it truly is. Disease. You are a beautiful person, good luck to you. Are you a web designer btw? Or did you have the help of someone else to set up this website? Take care.

    Posted by Dhalia | October 1, 2015, 11:34 am
    • Do you have any idea how insulting and judgmental this post sounds?…Why does every compliment have to be followed up with an opinionated reference to Dizzy’s disclosure of drinking (which, btw, was not an invitation for your commentary), and the demeaning suggestion that she couldn’t have possibly created/still maintain this website on her own?…A “thank you” would have been enough. PS, Thank you, Dizzy.

      Posted by Laura | October 3, 2015, 7:55 am
  30. This was an amazing story. Im 9 months sober of alcohol, and I stopped using meth over three years ago. I have this huge amount of confidence because (i thought) 9 months/3 years was enough time to mean I was over my addictions. Your story has made me think twice, even though I dont want to loose my confidence, it can happen. I copied and saved the whole thing to bring me confidence when maybe I wont have any, to bring me truth when I tell myself i can just have one drink, and for inspiration. Dizzy, if you want help, I hope you get it, and if you don’t then I hope one day you do – because no matter what you’re doing now im sure you could do it 10x better sober.


    Posted by Lisa | November 15, 2015, 5:14 pm
  31. Dizzy, thank you for these posts. I have read every inch of this site. I appreciate the time and effort you put into it, and while you didn’t need to explain yourself, your brave and poignant “about me” is incredible. Keep on truckin’.

    Posted by Jordy | November 24, 2015, 11:06 am
  32. Dizzy! ur site is amazing.. i love it, and don’t understand why A&E wouldnt pay to keep ur site up and running.. anyway i was wondering if you ever thought about adding before and after pics of the people featured on the show- some of the guest have had dramatic transformations. just a thought 🙂

    Posted by jacinda godwin | April 12, 2016, 10:55 am
    • Yeah a lot of the transformations, even after 90 days, have been pretty incredible. I feel like it’s one of those satisfying things that happens at the end of the episode and if I had them posted here it would be kind of a spoiler, know what I mean? I don’t know, I’ll think about it though. Thanks for your comment!

      Posted by Dizzy | April 12, 2016, 1:02 pm
  33. Just thank you! I haven’t ever gone back but I sometimes feel I haven’t moved forward…then I breathe life! Forget the rest and be blessed! I’m still sober and like the site! Very interesting. I so wish that people could really see all the rest and the harder work after the show. It saved my life and I am so grateful but can’t get a job and feel sold out literally to outlet after outlet and have been out of work 5’months but, I am SOBER! I have my babies and all is well with the world! Anyone may see my life, LOL and tons of pics on Facebook at Suzon sanford-Wildridge. I don’t take a ton of requests bc of problems in past with mean butt face peeps but if you would like u may always message me and if appropriate I will gladly talk. Also help with locating services and organizing interventions! Thanks again for the site
    Suzon Wildridge

    Posted by Suzon Wildridge | July 5, 2016, 10:47 pm
  34. Dizzy, I too have a fascination/over-whelming interest in Intervention for several reasons. Mostly, I have a cousin I love very much who, over the past 15 years, has thrown away her life on meth. It makes me very sad. I keep hoping to get family support and try to arrange an intervention for her one day before I have to identify her body. Your openness and eloquence shines through. Keep the site up and care for yourself!

    Posted by Carol Rogers | July 11, 2016, 5:28 pm
  35. Hey, Dizzy:

    Thanks for this site. It’s magnificent, and proof positive, through your comments and those of others, of how deeply meaningful this show has been to people, especially to addicts like myself and people who have been affected by addiction.

    I’ve actually written a blog post about the show that links to your site: https://blarneycandor.com/2016/07/28/aes-intervention-how-guilty-is-my-pleasure/

    Maybe you’ll like it, I dunno.

    Anyway, best wishes to you and yours.

    Posted by Blarney Candor | July 28, 2016, 10:21 am
  36. Thank you for sharing your story, Dizzy. It’s truly awful to hear that you’re still drinking – because I am, too.

    I’m also a woman from Washington State, and I checked myself into rehab about five years ago. I only managed to put together a year (to the day!) of sobriety. I had a celebration drink in 2012 when the presidential election results came back in… and I haven’t stopped drinking since then.

    I’m rapidly giving up hope that I’ll ever be able to drink like a normal human being. My drinking is slowly costing me my health, my friends, and my career. I hate it, and I fear it. I worry that I don’t want to quit yet. What’s it going to take?

    Anyway, I wanted to say thank you for your share. And you’re not alone.

    Posted by Rachel Evans | August 25, 2016, 6:28 pm
  37. Dizzy, thank you so much for telling us about yourself and your own journey. Your honesty is deeply respected and appreciated.

    Posted by Christina | November 25, 2016, 7:30 am
  38. If you’re still hooked today, December 11, 2016, I want you to know that I believe in you.

    Posted by Victoria | December 11, 2016, 11:01 am
  39. Dizzy, thanks for sharing your story! I love intervention for similar reasons. How are you doing today? Hang in there. Thanks for making this awesome website.

    Posted by Megan Modes | January 6, 2017, 8:31 am
  40. Thank you, I completely understand what you’re going through and how hard it is.

    Posted by A.S. | January 6, 2017, 7:31 pm
  41. Just happened upon your site after watching an Intervention marathon. It’s very impressive, what you’ve done here. So comprehensive and the summaries are wonderful. Keep up the good work!

    Posted by Cat B. | January 16, 2017, 8:46 pm
  42. Hi Dizzy,
    I too am a struggling addict. I have been addicted to many things throughout my life so I understand what kind of damage the soul feels when living this way. I feel a deep connection to people who struggle with addictions and mental & emotional disorders like the ones portrayed on Intervention. Like you I have watched the show from the start and I am obsessed with it. I prided myself in seeing every episode until an old rerun came across the tv yesterday. It was season 13 episode 158 with Gina. This one hit me like a ton of bricks and I am legitimately worried about Gina, as the episode ended without a visual follow up, just a brief message that she completed treatment and moved to a sober house. Do you have any new info on her?
    I LOVE what you are doing here!!! Thank you! Stay hopeful and insightful!!

    Posted by Susie | January 17, 2017, 2:37 pm
  43. Dizzy,
    Thank you for your website and your brutually candid admissions. I drank and did drugs socially through high school & college…it was fun- never a NEED. I went through a depressive episode and things were never the same again.
    I went through long periods of sobriety- which I traded for anorexia. I had an abscess, in 2014, which I had to take heavy meds…that lead me to drinking again.
    I’ve started & stopped so many times. I just want it to end.

    Thank you for your site❤

    Posted by Laura | January 27, 2017, 5:32 pm
  44. Where do i want to say thank u to the intetvention show. A couple who was had a intervention and was on the show are now religious leaders at our church. Thank You Jesus. Thank You intervention show

    Posted by Antoinette martonez | April 25, 2017, 1:13 pm
  45. Dizzy, Thank you for sharing your story. It is parallel to mine. My addictions include opiates, actually any pill that comes in a bottle and alcohol. I’ve been using for 27 years. The very first pill I took was the beginning of a long battle. The battle continues today. Nothing else matters unless I have something in my system. The doses that I take in one day would supply a normal person a really really long time. At the very least I am up to 60-80 pills a day, combining them with alcohol. At the very most 140 pills a day if I have them. Anyone who abuses pills know that if you don’t have them all you want to do is die. For the last 3 to 4 months I have been watching video after video about addiction and alcohol abuse. Just like you, I grew up with a mom and dad who are chronic alcoholics and abusers themselves. I swore I would never be like them. Here I am. This is the first time I’ve ever posted anything, and I’m actually shaking. It’s such a dirty little secret. I’ve been married for 16 years and my husband doesn’t have a clue. It’s lonely and terrifying and I just want for the first time say that I am so screwed up and I need help. You always think there’s nobody worse than you. I’ve never lived sober so I don’t know how to comprehend that it’s possible. After a while you start telling yourself that this is your Life and this is how it will always be. I don’t want this life anymore but I can’t tell anyone. I don’t know what to do

    Posted by Lisa | June 5, 2017, 12:38 pm
    • Lisa…I am a therapist and I have a client whose story is similar to yours. When she came to me she was taking dozens of pills a day. She came to me weekly for about six months and eventually felt strong enough to seek an addictions specialist. Forming an open and non-judgmental therapeutic relationship helped her open her mind to the possibility of getting well. As far as I know, she is still doing well 1 year later. Maybe that could be a starting point for you too. Carrying such a huge secret for years is exhausting and so very painful. Just food for thought. All best to you.

      Posted by Artemiseast | June 20, 2017, 5:49 pm
  46. HI, Dizzy — In browsing AandE’s site I found an episode I had never seen. His name is Phillip and he is a musician with a severe alcohol problem. I read your site obsessively and cannot find him. According to AandE it is Season 4, episode 21. Have you heard of this fellow? Thanks, for the site, its great.

    Posted by Artemiseast | July 8, 2017, 3:13 pm
  47. I’ve been watching intervention since the former radio star ran it before he himself OD’d, and many of the episodes hit home for me as well.
    My mother has been addicted to druids for as long as i can remember and is currently an alcoholic. She went from being able to build airplane engines in the airforce and working for the US Mint to smoking crystal meth.
    Her addiction caused her to withhold visitations from my father multiple times while i was a toddler, she’d forget me in the bathtub, I’d gotten sick many times, she even hid her paraphanelia in my dresser drawers.
    When i was 4 and a half, my mother’s boyfriend at the time and several of his friends broke into our house. I ran straight to my room. For a few hours i heard screaming, yelling, snagging, things getting thrown, my mom’s cries, duct tape, and i recall two men at separate times asking if I had a phone in my room, which i didn’t. I was not physically harmed, but my offer sister and my mother was. My older sister did not live with us but was staying over. She got a concussion and some inflicted injury and bleeding from a marble ashtray being slammed on her head. I still see my mother sometimes being cut up so bad that i thought the duct tape was all that held her together. Furniture over thrown, broken, things being strewn throughout the house.
    After being in foster care for two days, my father gained custody and picked me up. Since then, the worst thing I’ve done is smoked pot. I refuse to allow any type of drug or alcohol consume my life, i even hate taking prescription medications that may lead to dependency. There’s not a day that goes by when that night doesn’t haunt me after 20yrs. I watch these, and somehow find a little bit of closure, even if it’s not much. I root for certain people, and im glad there’s a way to keep up to date on some of these fighters.

    I hope that more people can see that you can come from a broken family, and still learn from your parents mistakes.

    Posted by Rae | August 7, 2017, 11:42 pm
  48. Thank you so much for making this website. It was very helpful in looking up and remembering the episodes. Also I just took a WordPress class so it was neat to see someone use WordPress in real life in which your website is bad ass btw. <3 P.S. I am on suboxone and have been off pills and on subs for 3 years now. <3

    Posted by Beth Razz | August 15, 2017, 10:26 pm
  49. Dizzy, I’ve been visiting this site for a while and it took me until just now to read the “About Dizzy” page. Shame on me!

    I hope you decide to give rehab and recovery another go very soon. You may be “functional,” but you’re still drinking too much and eventually your body will decide it’s had enough booze and begin to give you serious health problems that no one deserves to go through.

    I’m not an addict of any sort, but I grew up near Liverpool, England, which has a notorious drinking culture brought on by years of poverty, unemployment and lack of opportunity. I left Liverpool at 11 and moved to the USA with my family, but many of my friends from back home have struggled with drink and drugs and two have died of drink-related accidents.

    Posted by Janelle | August 18, 2017, 3:44 pm
  50. Where’s episode 2 with Gabe the Gambler? Did he make you take him down by threatening to sue you or something?

    Posted by Mia Basqua | August 28, 2017, 2:30 pm
    • LOL. No, I just refuse to give him any attention.

      Posted by Dizzy | August 29, 2017, 7:40 am
      • Dizzy, I think you absolutely should put Gamblin’ Gabe back on the episode list. He’s a vile human being, but he did appear on the show and he can be held up as a good example of one of the very small number of addicts that can’t be treated. I also think Jeff did a great job on that arsehole’s intervention, even though it turned out to be unsuccessful.

        Posted by Janelle | August 31, 2017, 4:30 pm
  51. Yeah… I second this comment by janelle on gabe. It’s your site, dizzy, do what you want. But please be mindful of what censorship does to the community who visits your site and your credibility. Addiction doesn’t descriminate, and neither should you.

    Posted by Andy Kayne | September 1, 2017, 1:41 pm
    • Censorship: I do not think it means what you think it means.

      I encourage you both to go start your own more credible, non-discriminatory websites.

      Posted by Dizzy | September 1, 2017, 6:58 pm
    • Andy Kayne, censorship is shutting down discussion, not choosing to omit one addict out of over 200. “Censorship” is a loaded, emotionally charged, and quite frankly overused word these days. Dizzy has chosen to omit Gamblin’ Gabe because he pissed Dizzy off to the point where he chooses not to give him anymore attention. I personally think this is a mistake because the episode (as are all episodes) was about loads more than just the addict, and I really do think Gabe’s episode was one of Jeff’s finest moments, but it’s Dizzy’s site and he gets to do what he wants with it.

      Posted by Janelle | September 4, 2017, 3:04 pm
      • Quick correction, just so you know, I’m a ‘she’.

        Posted by Dizzy | September 4, 2017, 3:58 pm
      • My apologies, Ms. Dizzy.

        Also, Gamblin’ Gabe’s follow-up episode (S1 E14) is another example of Jeff at the top of his game taking interest in helping an addict that he probably knows in the back of his mind cannot be rehabilitated.

        Posted by Janelle | September 5, 2017, 11:22 am
      • I’m pretty sure there was a follow-up with Gabe at some point – he claimed to be somewhat better but didn’t really seem to be. His parents were still completely supporting him financially and Jeff offered him a second round of treatment, which I think he refused.

        I was most impressed with Jeff’s incredible patience, not just with Gabe but with his parents. I get that this work requires a high degree of tolerance for bullshit but honestly, if I’d been Jeff in this situation, my head would have exploded.

        Posted by Elizabeth K. | September 5, 2017, 7:04 pm
  52. DIZZY: I have a poll suggestion: best episode by interventionist. Pick each interventionist’s 5 top episodes and let the reader decide which is their best. I’d recommend doing it only for Ken, Jeff, Candy and Donna as the others did too few episodes.

    My list would be as follows:

    KEN: Katherine C (S17E1), Linda (S8E1), Diana (S16E7), Samantha C (S14E3), Fabian (S4E2)

    JEFF: Gabe (S1E2), Donna & Josh (S9E1), Zeinah (S12E7), Sylvia (S2E19), Darick (S10E2)

    CANDY: Rocky (S8E14), Leslie (S3E11), Elena (S13E2), Penny Lee (S11E6), Tressa (S4E7)

    DONNA: Sierra (S15E2), Jonel (S15E15), Sandi (S13E15), Nichole (S13E1), Todd (S16E8)

    Posted by Galusha | September 13, 2017, 2:55 pm
  53. I once posted a comment on here somewhere but can’t find it! Anyway, I just want to join the voices thanking Dizzy for her incredible work running this site. Just wow. But I am not necessarily a fan of the Intervention show. I do believe the people are addicts, but I do not believe they are not aware they’re going to be on the show from the start. There is too much obvious staging…. really, we’re supposed to believe all these folks think they’re going to be on a documentary? Who is supposed to be producing this so-called documentary? What possible incentive would there be for hundreds of people over the years to volunteer for this, including numerous videos of shooting up, inhaling, stealing and drug purchases… all things that addicts typically try very hard to hide, for obvious reasons. The only incentive (other than money) would be the promise of treatment in very nice treatment facilities that they wouldn’t otherwise have access to, especially in resort towns like CA and AZ. Anyway, I do appreciate your forums, Dizzy, and would love to hear your response and responses from others.

    Posted by jacqueline a | September 26, 2017, 7:35 am
  54. i do not know if you help, but 17 seasons and im watching the same episodes as last week

    Posted by judy | September 26, 2017, 8:19 am
  55. Dizzy, will you ever put up summaries of Episode 70 (Mike & Jenny)? I believe Mike has since died.

    Posted by Galusha | September 27, 2017, 8:21 am
    • Since that episode isn’t available anywhere and I don’t remember enough from when I watched it years ago, I wouldn’t be able to do a proper write-up. So for now, no, but if it ever becomes available then yes.

      Posted by Dizzy | October 2, 2017, 4:01 pm
  56. Just a personal question for you Dizzy: Does Linda ever comment on her intervention page?

    And if so, what type of comments does she make that would lead to those not getting approved if she has commented before?

    I’m just curious. 🙂

    Posted by Timothy Chen | October 1, 2017, 7:32 pm
  57. Thank you Dizzy! Although, she makes very outrageous comments about her episodes, how her EDS is real, and a lot of Sam bashing. She sometimes go by linkizzy77 just an FYI, but you don’t have to approve her outrageous comments though. Thank you again, I was just curious.

    Posted by Timothy Chen | October 2, 2017, 4:56 pm
  58. Dizzy, you are an amazing person for creating this website, I have been on and off it for years and never seen this page so thank you for your story!

    I am still drinking heavily and working so I guess functioning although the fuzz in my head gets thicker every day.

    I am in the UK and am finding it so hard to find episodes to watch. I managed to buy series 1-4 off iTunes but they don’t have any more and the youtube ones are terrible, missing bits out and on a really small screen. Any idea how I can view more recent series in the UK?

    Thanks in advance and keep up the amazing work xxx

    Posted by foreverfuzzy | October 5, 2017, 8:16 am
  59. Hey Dizzy, I found two 2 episodes of the lost episodes you haven’t covered on your website. Do you want me to share a link?

    Posted by Frank | October 8, 2017, 11:19 am
  60. DIZZY!! I can’t thank you enough for all the hard work and research you put into the show. I love to get lost for hours on your website! Sometimes i go back through each season and read and remember why I loved a certain episode so much. I feel like your site is the unofficial fan club for intervention. I also love how you have comment sections for each episode so we can see (if any) updates on the person and in some cases read an update from the person from the show! Thank you for sharing your personal story and know that we all need you here! You are strong and smart and can conquer whatever comes your way! We all have our reasons for watching but I watch them for the same 2 reasons you mentioned above.

    Posted by Vicky | November 5, 2017, 7:32 pm
  61. Dizzy, thank you so much for this website!!! Your sobriety is awesome!!! Keep up the good work!!!! I have faith in you.

    Posted by Jennifer | January 22, 2018, 10:53 am
  62. Hi, Dizzy. Like some of the other people who have responded to you, I’m also a woman from Washington State, not an active addict at the moment, but I’ve had similar struggles to yours. I visited your site because I was looking for info on INTERVENTION, and I have certainly found the site extraordinarily useful–and beautifully designed, too. I’m writing in response to your personal story because I’ve come to believe that the way our culture presents addiction and recovery–including the ideas promoted by INTERVENTION–contributed to my addictions. For a long time, like you, I knew perfectly well what was wrong with me but just couldn’t get sober until I walked away from everything I had learned on the “recovery scene.” Reading your story, I can’t help wondering if something similar might be going on with you, because, if anyone in the world has been helped by INTERVENTION, it should be you! In other words, maybe it’s time to look somewhere really different for help: to meditation or the Sinclair Method or Refuge Recovery, which is a Buddhist alternative to 12-step. Whatever you do, I wish you the very best. If I can do anything to help you, please ask.

    Posted by thesoberheretic | March 18, 2018, 2:38 pm
    • I can’t really disagree with you. Sometimes I think that the things I had to tell myself when I was in the program are the things that kept me from being able to quit again. I’ve now been sober for 3 1/2 months and have been doing a lot of reading about alternate types of treatments/tactics, which I think has helped a great deal.

      Posted by Dizzy | March 20, 2018, 8:25 am
  63. Dizzy, you’ve touched my life in many ways, with this site and your posts. I feel like I’m in the beginnings of an addiction/dependency. During the day time I am completely functioning, sober, working 9 hours a day. As soon as I get home, I overindulge in booze and my prescriptions/weed. I try to escape the days stress and try to numb out my multiple mental illnesses (dysthymia, adhd, agoraphobia). Hell, most of the time I’m watching intervention while I’m completely obliterated. I’m only 22 years old on a terrible path of polydrug and alcohol abuse. I’m scared and don’t know what to do. But here I’ve learned I’m not alone, I feel for every one of these people, and hurt right along with them. I’m rambling at this point, I’ve been trying to write a comment somewhere on here expressing love and hope, I just hope enough people see this. I’m here to talk to any one who needs it, just ask for my email.

    Posted by Palindrome Princess | May 29, 2018, 4:41 pm
    • Thanks so much for commenting. I’m really glad this site has been a source of comfort for you, that means a lot to me.

      You are definitely not alone. I feel ya, and I know a lot of Intervention watchers understand what you’re going through too. It’s SO HARD to break out of that routine once you’re so deep in it, but it’s not impossible. I just spent an entire decade always being drunk, hungover, or powerfully craving a drink, until I finally had enough of hating myself and made a quiet but stern commitment to myself each day to just not drink that day. It wasn’t the easiest thing I’ve ever done, there were some pretty sketchy moments of almost giving up, but I soldiered through the cravings and the angst and now it’s been 6 months and I don’t hate myself or my life anymore, and I’m more hopeful about my future than I have been in a long long time. So yeah, just remember it’s not impossible to break out of the routine you’re in. It takes a major conscious effort and it can be painful at times, but it’s totally do-able and not nearly as painful as being chained to an addiction, I can say that for sure. Best of luck to you.

      Posted by Dizzy | May 30, 2018, 7:02 am
    • Hang in there Palindrome Princess! It sounds like you have a lot going for you including some pretty good insight. You said you didn’t know what to do so I have a few suggestions. I know you didn’t ask so apologies if I am crossing a line. First – do you have a close friend or family member that you can talk to who won’t judge and will help you get help? Second – can you access a therapist? If your work has health insurance, you can start there. Many communities also have sliding scale therapists available so that cost is not prohibitive. Try visiting https://www.nami.org/ for more resources. If your employer has an employee assistance program (EAP), they can also link you to resources. And while AA isn’t for everyone, going to even one meeting might help you in some way, including helping you see that you are not alone in this. And it’s free.

      Best of luck and do hang in there. There is definitely hope.

      Posted by Elizabeth | May 30, 2018, 7:24 am
    • Hi Palindrome Princess,
      I just wanted to say that I know how you feel. Been there, done that. Functioning all day but popping pills at night. Please know that there are plenty of people here you can talk to. Just ask for my email and I’ll be more than happy to give it to you.
      Hang in there….you can and will conquer this!

      Posted by Kitty Katt | June 1, 2018, 1:39 pm
    • Oof, yeah they did. There are a few pages and youtube videos like that out there, all the content obviously taken directly from here, no credit given. That one’s interesting because they actually credit A&E with the photos. A&E most definitely did NOT provide those photos! Anyway, it’s a bummer but not much I can do about it.

      Posted by Dizzy | June 11, 2018, 6:41 am
  64. Dizzy-

    I don’t know if you have seen this but Vanessa Marquez from ER has died. Police were sent to do a wellness check and she had a B.B. that she pulled in them. They had to shoot as they thought she was coming for them with a real gun. I believe she was in Season 1 in one of the missing episodes.

    Posted by Jenny | August 31, 2018, 11:28 pm
  65. Hi Dizzy! Thank you for your story! You are amazing!!!!

    Two questions: First, where can I find the intervention Canada episodes online? I haven’t seen Ramoin adding them. Are they available somewhere else?

    Second, I was wondering why there are no episodes on Adderall? I mean it is a prescription drug, schedule 2, and people are becoming addicted to it. Do you have any insights here?

    Posted by Alice Schmid | March 10, 2019, 12:22 pm
  66. I love the honesty you put out there. I am 51 yrs old and after my husband was killed by our local sheriff department, my best friend for the next 10 years was my bottle of vodka. I am 5 months sober now and your story will stick with me. I hope one day you will find your peace.

    Posted by Kris Sorenson | May 7, 2019, 10:47 pm
  67. Hi Dizzy,

    I just wanted to say thank you so very much for all of your effort in creating and managing this great website.

    I don’t post here much but I visit often and like many others that do I’m sure, I feel an emotional connection to those who appear on the show.

    I can’t imagine the work that goes in to keeping up with it all and all of the pressure and stress that it puts on you to keep all of this up-to-date but I know it has to be high and I just wanted to take a moment to thank you for all of your hard work and to let you know that I really appreciate it, as I am sure so many others do.

    Thanks for all you do, Dizzy! You’re the best!

    Keep up the great work, my friend.

    Posted by Brian | July 30, 2019, 7:42 pm
  68. I’m a recovering anorexic and some days I just want to restrict just one day but we all know if I do it ome day it will turn to many years. I hope you get help dizzy. I’m here if you need me. I used to work at a rehab and know all the things to keep on track.

    Posted by Rehab helper | August 3, 2019, 4:14 pm
  69. DIZZY! This site is a Godsend! I have been watching Intervention forever and stumbled across this site awhile ago but new to posting. Your story is very much like mine. Family of alcoholics and there’s me following right along. I am an opiate and alcohol addict. No more opiates here, I turned to vodka after my husband stumbled upon my vast Rx collection. Tried The Program too, had a sponsor, shared, whole nine yards. Honestly it wasn’t for me. I wanted to drink even more when I was in AA. Don’t get me wrong, if it works for some I’m so glad!!

    If you’re still sober, yippee!! I hope so!! If not, I’m right there. I am a weekend drinker but haven’t been stoopid drunk in years. Functional drinker. I will take what I am over what I was any day of the week!

    I say all that to get my story out. More than that I wanted to tell you what a fantastic job you do!! You have made me feel less alone and I praise and support you.

    Posted by ARGIRL | October 24, 2019, 4:48 am
    • ArGirl, being honest is one step towards beating your addiction. You checked that block when you replied to this blog. You can DO IT GIRL! Not that you aren’t aware, but weekend drinking/functional drinking can still lead to cirrhosis of the liver amongst other life threatening illnesses. You are headed in the right direction and I wish you much love and strength to beat this demon. You DESERVE to be healthy and live a sober free life. You deserve it!!!

      Posted by Michelle | January 8, 2020, 12:42 am
  70. That’s so strange that you started back with Cider. Every time my Dad has relapsed it is always been with Cider. I wonder why alcoholics seem to think that is a safe drink. Interesting thing to look at psychologically.

    Posted by Rachel M | March 11, 2020, 12:09 am
  71. Hello dizzy I hope
    is well. My ex fiancé was on intervention Ivan Gonzalez. I was on the show with him Halimah Muhammad.
    Just was commenting thank you for keeping everyone updated on people’s development that was getting help in rehab,

    Posted by Halimah muhammad | July 3, 2020, 10:56 am
  72. I’m hoping you can help me remember a young man on intervention! All I can remember is him feeling ashamed to meet up with his family because he had been on the streets and he was washing up in the bathroom for them. I wanted to jar my brain about the rest of the episode and find out any updates.

    Posted by Ginger | July 19, 2020, 6:45 pm
    • Maybe Charles?

      Posted by Stefan | July 21, 2020, 12:44 am
    • Ohhh I remember this one. They met at a breakfast restaurant (his sisters were present) and he washed up in the bathroom there before joining them. He was mortified 🙁

      I think it was an Intervention Canada episode as the breakfast place looks like a “Cora” (Canadian chain). I’m going to have a look online to see if I can figure it out.

      Posted by Rob | July 21, 2020, 2:35 am
    • Hey again – I’ve been checking online and I think you’re referring to Season 16, episode 13. The addict’s name is Robert and halfway thru, he meets his whole family for lunch at a Vietnamese place and washes up in the bathroom.

      Honestly, his backstory is horrific – it’s one of those episodes that you watch and say “I can totally see why someone would need to numb that pain”. It broke my heart into a million pieces.

      Posted by Rob | July 21, 2020, 2:46 am
  73. Hi Dizzy,

    I haven’t seen anything from you recently. I’m not sure if I’m just overlooking it but I hope you’re ok. I have a loved one who is an alcoholic so when I read your story, it touched me. I try my best to be a shoulder and ear for anyone who needs to vent and just be heard. I don’t know if you can see my email address but please feel free to reach out to me should you need someone to talk to or just want to be heard.

    Posted by Q | August 11, 2020, 4:48 pm
  74. Dear Dizzy,

    There is an error in the directory. Diana of Buena Park, CA is from 2017, season 17, not season 16.

    Posted by Aloisia Schmid (Alice) | August 23, 2020, 10:34 am
  75. Such an amazing website. Thank you for creating this. ❤️👍

    Posted by Elizabeth Valentine | October 18, 2020, 11:22 pm

Leave a Reply